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Wow...four years. I don't think anyone who read this four years ago would be reading it now. And that's kind of what I need. I need an outlet. Not much has changed since my last entry. I still don't talk to Amanda. I can't remember if I talked to her after my last entry, but the last time I remember talking to her was on the phone screaming "fuck you" because she thought I wanted her boyfriend. I didn't, but I don't think it mattered. I'm already starting to get writer's block.
I do miss Amanda. I haven't thought about her much, but things with the boyfriend are getting painful and it reminds me how nice it was to have a friend close by. I'm pretty sure the damage is irreparable and I can't imagine what I'd say to her. Too much shit went down.
I need a friend, though. Not that I don't have friends, just none close by.
That's one thing I've never understood. How the hell do people make friends? I haven't the faintest idea how I got the ones I have, let alone how to make new ones. What's the secret? What am I missing? Blah.
Anyway, I think this is a sufficient starter post. I like facebook, but livejournal is a good place to hide.
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[03 May 2006|12:14am] |
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Wow, I am officially boring.
Or officially realizing what everyone else already knows.
I am extremely annoyed with one of my friends. She's having some issues and we've stopped speaking. Again. And I don't think that it's not going to be like last time, when I heard from her again after a few months. I'm not even sure I want to hear from her. Our friendship, if you can call it that, is so unfair and one-sided. Last summer, when my life was pretty much hell, she completely cut me out of her life. I spent so long being angry with her. And I thought I was done and over it, but I'm not. I'm so mad at her. I don't even like her right now. I can't be a friend to someone who treats me like absolute shit when it suits her. Not anymore. And the really sad thing is, she doesn't care.
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[27 Mar 2006|01:43pm] |
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[25 Mar 2006|06:56am] |
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A family of satanic birds have decided to build a nest very close to my window, causing me to be awake at 6:34 after only an hour and a half of sleep.
So, the fourth Harry Potter movie. I bought it for my nephew and niece a little over a week ago when we all had the stomach flu. It's not a BAD movie. It's just not very good. First of all, they left out over half of the story. Seriously. I know I gripe about how much is left out of ALL the movies, but this one is just obnoxious. Second of all, Dumbledore is completely out of character. The movies have done a piss-poor job of portraying the best wizard in several centuries. The first Dumbledore was too...harmless. He was old and feeble and completely devoid of any humor or life. And this new Dumbledore is just scary. Dumbledore NEVER yells at Harry during the books. He does not glare or stomp about. He doesn't grab students and shake them. And the actor who plays Ron sucks. Which brings me to my next point, and I CANNOT EMPHASIZE THIS ENOUGH: The movies have KILLED the character of Ron. He's spineless and stupid and basically there just to utter a somewhat humorous line or make a funny face every now and then. Ron in the books is awesome. He's not a complete moron, he's fiercely protective of his friends, and yes, he's funny, but that's not his SOLE REASON FOR EXISTENCE. He's Harry's best friend. He argues with Hermione on a daily basis, but he also gets into fist fights with Malfoy to defend her.
I read a review about this movie and there was a line in it that I agree with wholeheartedly. "The point of the Potter books is that they are kids books with an entertaining story line - that focuses mostly on the characters and little on the world." The people who are making this movie are so focused on showing us MAGIC!! and COOL STUFF!!! that the characters and the plot become lost.
And don't even get me started with how they've screwed up the Ron/Hermione storyline. It is obvious that the filmakers want Harry and Hermione to get together. They want it SO BADLY. It would be so freaking EASY for them. That way they wouldn't have to put any effort into developing Ron's character.
Bottom Line: These movies are lazy. They really need to be made by people NOT looking to make money and who truely love the books. I would kill to have Peter Jackson re-make these movies. All of them.
Ok, I've ranted/rambled for far too long. If anybody got this far, kudos. Must return to bed...satanic birds and all.
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[23 Mar 2006|10:28pm] |
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It's been a long day. A very, very long day. I drove about 8,000 miles around my town. Argued with my mother. Went to El Dorado's, the restuaraunt I loathe beyond all imagining. All the food I ate all day tasted like shit.
Blah.
So I bought a 6-pack and came home.
Since I'm drunk and alone, I feel like I should unveil some truths that most of you know....
I'm STILL insanely attracted to a guy I worked with, even though I haven't seen him in over two months and haven't talked to him in over a month.
George Carlin is hilarious.
My mom keeps urging me to go back to school, even though I keep telling her I'll crap out again. She wants to be able to claim me on her income tax.
I miss school, but I'm not ready to try again.
I've been watching George Carlin for over half an hour, and I still don't know what he looks like...
4 Mike's Hard Lemonade's is enough to get me sloshed....
I haven't talked about my father's death with ANYBODY.
I am a psychotically impulsive drunk dialer.
I love Scrat. And I'm reeeeeeaaallllly looking forward to Ice Age 2.
The situation with Mike is making me very angry. At myself. Because I got myself into this situation AGAIN. Where he doesn't care, and I do. I have a fever of 103 and I can't get him to call. That's stupidity on MY part.
I cannot stop laughing at George Carlin.
I drank a smirnoff triple black tonight at El Dorado's and was immediatly transported to Tia's house 3 years ago when I vomited in my hair in the middle of the night. Yuck....
I have recently fallen in love with Fall Out Boy. Although I can't understand 90% of their lyris.
I'm talking myself out of calling people as we speak...
I don't understand how it's possible for America to have drive-thru chapels and still argue that gay marriage will desecrate the sanctity of marriage. Blah....
I want to have George Carlin's babies.
I absolutely LOVE my car and the fact that it pisses off my family makes it that much more appealing.
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[23 Mar 2006|09:59pm] |
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It's 9:58 according to my RAZR phone. My sister-in-law is asleep on the couch. I'm already very drunk. And my fingers are itching to make phone calls.
I think, since I'm still coherent enough to type this, I should take the battery out of my phone and hide it. Then finish my 6-pack and go to bed. And not have to worry about what I said to anybody I called whilst trashed....
We'll see what happens.
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[16 Mar 2006|12:24am] |
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I hate my life so much right now...
I've thrown up more in the past 3 months than I have in my entire life. I had a fever of 103.2 last night, which was one of the worst experiences of my life. And I am so completely alone, it's obnoxious.
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[02 Mar 2006|12:36pm] |
I walked into my room this morning just in time to see Animal Planet show a close up of a seagull projectile vomiting...
In slow motion, no less.
WHY???
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[01 Mar 2006|01:29am] |
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I'm staring at the clock but the clock
Doesn't talk, it just stands still
A head full of fuzz, and a puzzle
That adds up the scandal
No I can't handle three nights
So I shudder to think
When the nights turn to weeks
Am I alright? The comedian said
That a day without lights just...
-Jack's Mannequin
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[25 Feb 2006|12:09pm] |
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So, in the past two months I've had:
3 colds. I'm on cold number 3 right now.
2 ear infections.
More problems with my teeth.
Some kind of weird stomach problem which resulted in vomiting and other disgusting bodily functions.
1 really, really bad date.
Blah...
I know it could get much, much worse. But I really hope it doesn't.
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[23 Feb 2006|11:12pm] |
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Sometimes I look at my life and I just have to laugh.
Because I Am Crazy.
And I seriously have no clue what to do.
Why does this have to be so damn complicated?
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[23 Feb 2006|01:46am] |
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My throat really, really hurts.
Ouch.
:(
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[18 Feb 2006|11:37pm] |
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So I was going through a bunch of stuff on my old computer and found this. Written two years ago. I haven't changed one bit.
I'm sick of this. I get myself into these situations. It's my own fault. I'm really good at not saying what I want to say and dancing around things that might actually show some of my emotions. I'm not good at dealing with emotions. Especially mine. So I don't say anything meaningful and I don't let the other person know anything, because that would just be the end of my carefully constructed little platonic thing where I don't get hurt. And it always blows up in my face. Why can't I be normal? Why do I have to care so much about whether or not people know...how I feel, is the only way I can put it.
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[16 Feb 2006|11:21pm] |
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I'm hiding from my phone.
That's really sad.
I've just spent so much time avoiding calls and hoping for calls that I just can't take it anymore. I don't care how cool my phone is, I currently loathe it beyond all imagining right now.
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[15 Feb 2006|04:11pm] |
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"I know that you believe you understand what you think I said, but I'm not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant."
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[15 Feb 2006|12:44am] |
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Heres a list of 178 movies. Apparently, if you've see over 70, you have no life. Number the ones you've seen. Put your score in header and repost
(1) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(2) Grease
(3) Pirates of the Caribbean
(4) Boondock Saints
(5) The Mexican
(6) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(7) Blazing Saddles
(8) Airplane
(9) The Princess Bride
(10) Young Frankenstien
( ) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
(11) Napoleon Dynamite
(12) Saw
(13) White Noise
(14) White Oleander
( ) Anger Management
(15) 50 First Dates
(16) Jason X
(17) Scream
(18) Scream 2
(19) Scream 3
(20) Scary Movie
(21) Scary Movie 2
(22) Scary Movie 3.
(23) American Pie
(24) American Pie 2
(25) American Wedding
(26) Harry Potter
(27) Harry Potter 2
(28) Harry Potter 3
(29) Harry Potter 4
( ) Resident Evil
( ) Resident Evil 2
(30) The Wedding Singer
(31) Little Black Book
(32) The Village
(33) Donnie Darko
(34)Lilo & Stitch
( ) Lilo & Stitch 2: Stitch has a Glitch
(35) Finding Nemo
(36) Finding Neverland
(37) 13 Ghosts
(38) Signs
(39) The Grinch (Jim Carrey)
( )Texas Chainsaw Massacre (The Original)
( ) White Chicks
(40) Butterfly Effect
(41) 13 Going on 30
(42) I, Robot
(43) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(44) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(45) Along Came Polly
(46) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(47) Never Been Kissed
(48) Meet The Parents
(49) Meet the Fockers
(50)Eight Crazy Nights
(51) Joe Dirt
(52) A Cinderella Story
( ) the Terminal
(53) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(54) Dumb & Dumber
( )Dumb & Dumberer
(55) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
(56) Halloween
(57) The Ring
(58) The Ring 2
(59) Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
(60)Practical Magic
(61) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
(62) From Hell
(63) Hellboy
(64) Secret Window
(65) I Am Sam
(66) The Whole Nine Yards
(67) The Day After Tomorrow
(68) Bride of Chucky
(69) Ten Things I Hate About You
(70) Just Married
(71) Gothika
(72) Nightmare on Elm Street
(73) Sixteen Candles
(74)Remember the Titans
()Coach Carter
(75) Bad Boys
(76) Bad Boys 2
(78) Joy Ride
(79) Se7en
(80) Oceans Eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Identity
( ) Lone Star
(81)Predator
( ) Predator II
(82) Independence Day
(83) Cujo
(84) A Bronx Tale
(85) Darkness Falls
() Christine
(86) ET
(87) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss' daughter
(88) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
( ) Best Bet
(89) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(90) She's All That
(91) Calendar Girls
(92) Sideways
(93) Mars Attacks
(94) Event Horizon
(95)Ever After
(96) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(97) X-Men
(98) X2
(99) Spider-Man
(100) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
(101) Jeepers Creepers
(102) Jeepers Creepers 2
(103) Catch Me If You Can
(104) The Others
(105) Freaky Friday (original)
( ) Reign of Fire
(106) Cruel Intentions
() The Hot Chick
(107) Swimfan
( ) Miracle
( ) Old School
(108) The Notebook
(109) K-Pax
(110) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(111) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(112) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(113) A Walk to Remember
(114) Boogeyman
(115) Hitch
(116) The Fifth Element
(117) Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
(118) Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
(119) Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
(120) Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
(121) Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(122) Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi
(123) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks
(124) Air Force One
(125) For Richer or Poorer
( ) Trainspotting
(126) People Under the Stairs
( ) Blue Velvet
(127) Sound of Music
(128) Parent Trap
( ) Parent Trap Re-make (Lindsay Lohan)
(129) The Terminator
(130) Terminator 2
( ) T-3
(131) Empire Records
( ) SLC Punk
(132) Meet Joe Black
(133) Nightmare Before Christmas
(134) The Silence of the Lambs
(135) Red Dragon
(136) Sleepy Hollow
( ) I Heart Huckabees
( ) 24 Hour Party People
( ) Blood In Blood Out
(137) Neverending Story
(138) Bedazzled
(139) The Burbs
(140) Child's play
Ok, so I really didn't need this to tell me I have no life....but wow.
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[14 Feb 2006|10:21pm] |
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I agree with the away message of someone on my buddy list...
Fuck Valentines Day.
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[13 Feb 2006|11:59am] |
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I was asked out for Valentine's Day....
through a text message.
If the situation wasn't so pathetic, I'd be laughing my ass off. This poor guy. He's the one I went on a really bad date with last Sunday. The date in which I got very drunk in order to avoid him. So I'm going to have to break down and tell him I really don't want to date him. Because after I said "No, I've got other plans, thanks for asking," he texted me back (::facepalm::) and asked about Saturday night. Blah....
As if Valentine's Day weren't depressing me enough already, this happens.
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[12 Feb 2006|05:56am] |
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Sometimes you feel like a nut. Sometimes Vin Diesel eats your children.
I totally stole this from Erine's boyfriend's away message, but I HAD to put it on here. I laughed for about an hour.
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[09 Feb 2006|11:49pm] |
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Why, why, whywhywhywhyWHY is this so hard? It' is JUST a phone call. It's not going to alter space time. It's not going to change the course of my life. It's just a call to apologize for being a drunken ass. And for anything I said that may have offended his girlfriend. So...::frustration:: What is my problem?
I'm such a spaz. I hate being me sometimes.
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